My Story

Hello! Lovely to meet you.

I’m so happy to see you here looking for solutions. I was you. I was trawling the internet trying to find the golden bullet that was going to stop me from screaming at my son but it wasn’t that simple.

I searched and tried many different things. I begged doctors and therapists for help. I went to a support group who had the power to take my son away…I wanted help to stop shouting.

I had no idea what was going on. I’ve always been super independant and a bit fiesty but never had I expected to shout at my son. It was heartbreaking.

Before he was born I had done my best to eat well and be physically ready for the birth. I’d even taken some therapy to help me deal with the trauma if I needed to go to hospital for a c-section (hospitals traumatise me).

BUT! I hadn’t anticipated that I would become a screaming meltpot of a mum whose emotions were raw and savage at times. It was hell and I don’t want any other mum or child to have to endure it. This photo is us now & how it’s supposed to be! Fun, joy, uncontrollable giggles and confidence.

I became a mum at 40 years old. It was a big decision to become a lone mum at that age but I had lost my prime years whilst in an abusive relationship and had never wanted kids with him. So, when I had finally escaped and many years later got back to normal life, I didn’t have much time left. I didn’t have much desire to meet someone new, get to know them, and then try for a child. So I did it alone.

It was the best decision of my life.

The Background

When my son was born it coincided with a re-organisation at work. I was offered a package and I took it seeing it as a chance to be able to spend quality time with my son during the early years. Perfect!

It started off well but as the sleep deprivation built up, I started to get triggered by all sorts of things; mess, not sleeping, and not being able to tell me what was wrong. My expectations of him were completely unrealistic. He was a baby, I knew that but I still got triggered and reacted.

I wanted my son to have the happy carefree childhood he deserved. I wanted to feel the close bond with him and for him to feel secure with me, his only option of survival. I wanted him to feel loved, cherished and adored….but I kept shouting….

Until I understood.

I learned what was going on and it wasn’t simple. There were many elements playing their part that all had to be addressed step by step over time.

The Awakening

I went from out of control and going crazy to becoming aware of every moment of the day and mastering my emotions around them.

Each small victory of not shouting bolstered my confidence in the new method I was using.

It started to become second nature and seeing my son start to open up and blossom was as painful as it was overwhelmingly welcomed. Finally we were both being the fun and playful souls we were supposed to be.

The difference in us both now is huge. He is much more confident and ready to take on the world and I am much more at peace with everything and have the patience, energy and empathy to be the mum I always thought I would be.

No mum or child should have to go through this. It’s my mission to let all women know that they should not feel shame for doing their best and that there is a solution.

You don’t have to put up with the heart breaking shouting, frustration and fraught days. They can be fun, easy and filled with joy.

Work With Me

It’s GREAT that you are here and wanting to know a bit more about me.

I believe you should ALWAYS check out who you will be working with before you jump in.

So keep reading to find about about my mission, why I do what I do and the WAY THAT I WORK to see if it’s a good fit for you.

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